ToxicMaidenn

Why?

Despite Twitter being more popular, there are plenty of artists that post here exclusively, also you can choose to only follow a creator's art and not have your feed be muddled with pointless tweets and drama. Controversial statement: if we aren't close I can care less about your life updates. I want to sign in and see memes and art lol. Since my head is so stuck in the past on this site I wanted to see how many of my old friends I could remember AFTER ALL THIS TIME! (I used the wayback machine again it wouldn't load my old profile this time, so some of the usernames wont be accurate. Side note: I miss the old layout.)

Dothackgamer was the one that got me on this site in the first place. We became "friends" irl when I noticed an anime eye drawing on the back of his notebook. This was when anime was more niche and if you found someone who was into it you'd automatically become friends. Somewhere along the line he became very rude and a bad friend. I should've distanced myself from him but I had no one else to hang out with at the time.

Gloomy, boy this one is complicated. I posted an emo boy photo as my display pic on the front page because it was badass. Little did I know people would actually think it was me. I got caught up in the wave of attention and compliments, this was everything I ever wanted irl. So I decided to become this emo guy. Gloomy was a few years older and a great artist. She hit on me aggressively and well... she eventually found out that I'm not the really attractive emo guy and that I was the total opposite lol.

W[censored]M, another victim of my emo catfishing, but this was worse because we actually grew close to the point where we had an online relationship. After Gloomy found out I was lying, I no longer wanted to keep up the charade and told the truth to W[censored]M. Things were stable for a bit but as you would expect it heavily damaged our relationship. I really wish things ended abruptly and not the slow burn for months that was much more painful.

The nail was in the coffin once I introduced W[censored]M to my irl "friend", K[censored]Z. We had a love/hate friendship. That lasted as long as it did because we had a lot of things in common. She would be a jerk to me online but be "friends" with me IRL. W[censoredM]M was not only obsessed with her art but her face lol. They became closer once I separated myself completely from both of them. I'm sure K[censored]Z could tell that W[censoredM]M had a crush on her and reveled in blue-balling her. Lots of gossip about me was had but at this point it didnt matter.

GirlGamer222, W[censored]M's irl friend. She was very pretty and talented. It was my first introduction to the concept of being blocked because I was no longer dating her friend lol.

Sabby, an amazing artist from freaking Afghanistan! She was so damn nice to me. Once her skills grew so did her popularity and the rift between us :(

Sal, Sabby's irl friend. She wasn't an artist. I think me and her actually grew way closer than me and Sabby but Sal would NEVER log on! AHHHHH.

Sakuya, was into Disgaea and kicked my fucking ass in Street Fighter. Had a very colorful, time consuming, style with colored pencils. She even started to make her own manga.

Diva, I have no idea how me and her became friends but even through the interwebz I could tell she was cool and very mature. I think she also developed games.

SharinganSamuel, art started off kinda meh and then all of a sudden his skill shot through the roof. He was actually Dothackgamer's online friend originally. We talked on the phone, it was very awkward and not as fun as the online convos.

Naetendo, of the top tier artists on this list. She drew fanart of one of my OC's and it was insanely good. I tried to confide in her about my 'Art Depression' and she replied with something that sounded dismissive. I snapped at her, she clarified what she meant, and I felt dumb. We stopped talking after that moment.

Generalmongoose aka moose. Very nice. We live very different lives but I never felt like she judged me. Wish we were closer.

Finotaku, goes by a different Finnish sounding name now, she was very funny and supportive. My attempts to deeper our friendship (playing games online with each other, talking over Skype) failed. She was a big TMNT fan.

Itachitheboogyman, I still think her name is great. One of my closest buds at the time.

CoolcarZ, older guy very supportive when I was going through my various depressive

episodes. I'm not sure why he liked me, Im a piece of shit

TheRiks, cartoony artstyle, we didnt really talk much but when we did it was fun.

Chershin, probably the most talented artist on this list. She was also the weirdest girl I know at the time (which I love). Apparently, I was responsible for her taking her art seriously. Due to absurd communication issues amongst other things we stopped talking and I can't find her or her giant, beautiful tits online.

Xtiney, the only person that I felt was on my level of weirdness. She drew art of us that I still think about to this day….it was nsfw in a comedic way. We had great convos but she logged on very infrequently.

There is probably a handful more but I can’t remember their names and they were more acquaintances than friends. This post is really long so I’m going to end it here. This was definitely a different time, a different decade. There was a greater split between your IRL self and your ONLINE self because of the anonymity and lack of viable social media sites, you could really do and say what you wanted then.

Man, it'd be an understatement to say that looking at this moment in my life makes me emotional, I’m HELLA WRECKED atm! I remember getting so damn excited when I came home and it said I had 13 messages/comments waiting for me lol. But it’s all over... My brain isn’t as young as it used to be…so even if I could magically go back in time things would very different. I have different taste, standards and expectations. Every time I try to reignite the flames here and upload art again, no one responds and my page becomes a ghost town. FUCK. Well, I still do plan on staying here for a while but I’m keeping my expectations very very very low haha. Replacing my previous equally depressing journal post with this one.